Guys I’m really sad because its my last night with Ben and I have to say goodbye tomorrow. But at the same time I’m so happy because I found someone who cares about me so so much and makes me happy. :) I know our relationship will last over summer and we can continue it next year and keep growing stronger :’) seriously, I feel so lucky to have him.
Might not be compensated for around 40-50 hours of work…
Bye bye $350
Ughhhh he looks so sexy when he’s clean shaven. I hate that I only have 5 full days left with him.
I’m so lucky :)
I haven’t been posting much about running and that’s because I really haven’t been running much. Maybe 3 times a week is what I’m doing right now, and there are some reasons for that
- I was doing SO well after coming back from winter break, but then when I got put in the walking boot for 3 weeks it just kinda…I don’t know, broke my spirit. I know that a lot of people get injured, but it just sucked to see a lot of the progress I had made slowly fade away. At least I know I can get back to that level again someday :)
- I feel like my anemia is really bad right now. I’m unnecessarily tired and lack any type of motivation to do anything but sleep and watch Netflix. I know that when my iron levels are really low that I act a certain way and I’ve definitely been displaying some of those characterstics
- Lastly, ummm COLLEGE. Well, at least end of the semester college. I have so many essays to write, presentations to do, and exams to study for that it takes up so much of my time
In conclusion, I’m slightly upset that I haven’t been working hard towards running. But I know that when I get home in 2 weeks I’ll be able to get back into it very easily and work towards my goals.
Oh and in other news, my coach may red shirt me next year…we shall see.
This is what my schedule is going to look like next Fall :) Not disappointed. The light purple is my scheduled time for practice with my teammates. the light blue on m/w are my water fitness class (so I consider it cross training) and t/th is bike +weights cross training. And then all of the green are my academic classes. 16 units this semester :) Only one I’m not looking forward to is my Friday class (Minorities in American Cinema). Basically we watch movies and talk about it and I’m assuming write a paper or two and take some tests. Other classes are an introduction to biology, introduction to kinesiology, and statistics.
I can’t think of a better way to start the day…:)
When you know you shouldn’t want something, but you still do anyways.
I had such a nice night last night. I went to a kickback at someone’s dorm and ended up just hanging out with one person. That’s usually how it goes for me. I don’t like to go around and mingle, I usually find one person and hang out with them the majority of the night.
It’s always nice to sit with someone and just talk to them for a few hours and get a good sense of who they are instead of meaningless 5 minute conversations. So that made me happy. :)
Also I’ve been starting to hang out with a new group of people the past few weeks and now they ask me to come over or expect me to be at get togethers, and that makes me feel good. You know? That they actually want me there and enjoy my company. Is it sad that like 90% of my friends here are guys? I just can’t relate to girls very well and guys are so chill to be around. I can just play football with them or sit around and talk about dumb stuff and have the best time.
Oh and I don’t think I’ve ever told you guys this. I looooove the sun, like everything about it. The sight, the feeling, drawings of it…everything.
BUT IM ALLERGIC TO IT. My hands and feet are covered in blisters because I can’t handle the sun for too long :’( cry.
Wake up to the sound of waves crashing, make myself a cup of coffee and read Born to Run, walk to the local market and pick up fresh fruit and freshly made bread, walk back and eat my breakfast while laying on the beach, take a long walk and listen to music, walk back to the motor home and grab some fruit for lunch, take a nap on the beach, read my book some more, shower, make some yummy pasta and a salad for dinner, sit by the fire, and then sleep.
Literally a perfect day :)
Sometimes I look at my body and think “why can’t I look like those girls in magazines?” And then I’m like oh wait, I’m not photoshopped so yay for having a real body with curves and stretch marks and freckles and all the “flaws” that a professional would take away. And then it wouldn’t be my body anymore, just a morphed version. I pick my own body over an idolized fake one any day.
Step 1: eat everything in sight (including chipotle burritos)
Step 2: workout if I feel like it
Step 3: work my bikini just like I would any day of the year because I love my body exactly how it is and don’t need to punish it just to look better for the sake of being at the beach.
Love your body exactly how it is TODAY. Not what it might look like someday. If you have this mindset of “I won’t look good unless I’m xx pounds” then you’re really losing out on loving who you are everyday of the year.
Random, but I’ve made a conscious decision to not go raw vegan quite yet. For now I am enjoying my baked dinners and that’s quite alright :) Also….I really miss coffee. ^_^
My mind is constantly changing, sorry :)
My heart is hurting tonight. Laying in bed just crying thinking about all the wonderful memories that turned into nothing. I’ve been suppressing letting these thoughts come into my frame of mind, but I just can’t tonight. All those sweet words and lovely actions all mean nothing to you now…and I’m left here wishing for someone to make me feel that way again. Haven’t cried in bed in a long time.
